That’s why I am now in savior’s complex and poverty porn rehab. I am currently not teaching students anymore. I don’t deserve to. Honestly, I wish a lot of people would leave the profession, at least long enough to self-reflect. I have a lot to unlearn before I get the privilege to be with students again. I am now on a listening campaign as I hear from hundreds of students throughout the country who are telling me how deeply they have been scarred by school.
Being an educator who is now trying to unpack my savior complex issues, has become my life’s calling, but it wasn’t always like that. Along the journey, I think I may have done more harm as an “educator” than good. I would never really want to admit that though. I try to explain it away by stating that I had good intentions, but there’s that one saying, about a certain road being paved (to hell) with good intentions, do you know which one I’m talking about? I laid a lot of bricks on that road, and so have many of my colleagues, especially the ones that society deems “educational leaders.”