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Showing posts with label personal reflection. Show all posts
Showing posts with label personal reflection. Show all posts

Saturday, November 02, 2024

"Last Night's DEI Dream: Art and a Change of Heart Will Save the World," by Angela Valenzuela, Ph.D.

Last Night's DEI Dream: Art and a Change of Heart Will Save the World

by

Angela Valenzuela, Ph.D.

November 2, 2024

Perhaps inspired by the Day of the Dead and my deep thoughts and prayers these days on ancestors, especially my late mother, Helen Valenzuela, I had a dream last night that I was on a search committee at a major public university in Texas. Our committee of 5 members of the faculty were to replace a departing provost. The provost is the head of the academic mission of the university. They are also referred to as the Chief Academic Officers of the university. 

In my dream, she was an affable white woman with short red hair and freckles. Race and gender are important to this story on DEI, though I will not analyze it fully as I'm still processing the dream. I welcome your comments.

The space for the search committee meeting was a vast, open quadrangle that blended elements of ancient Greek design with modern, dilapidated structures that were chipped and crumbling. Ha! A "Hellenic" context. Love you, Mom! My dream felt at once current, futuristic, and dystopian.

The roads leading up to the quadrangle were dusty and riddled with potholes, a stark contrast to the imposing Greek-motif main building that loomed ahead. Its impressive facade evoked a bygone era, hinting at faded grandeur. The marble columns and platforms appeared worn and weathered, their once-smooth surfaces now etched with the marks—not of time, one sensed—but of underinvestment and neglect. Still, we as a faculty were pursuing our charge to select the next provost of the university with me as one of their representatives.

I searched for an equivalent architectural structure online and this was the closest that I could find. This is a digital creation of what the Temple of Elysian Harmony looked like in ancient Greece. It is fitting, as for the ancient Greeks, the Elysium symbolized a realm of creativity, wisdom, and intellectual pursuits—the highest and noblest of qualities we envision for our universities today. This is why so many university campuses—and public buildings, too—are adorned with architectural artwork and aesthetically constructed according to Greek and Roman architecture in order to convey power, authority, and status.

However, in the context of my dream, I want you to imagine a large, u-shaped quadrangle structure that similarly consists of marble columns and platforms, with the entire structure opening up at its mouth to a large dirt parking lot and roads leading up to it. Cars are inchoately parked, revealing a lack of order that betrayed the decorum of "the Elysian" of my dream. I walked through the uncomfortable dust to get to my meeting with the search committee and provost. 

On a specially constructed platform astride the Elysian marble stairs, the outgoing provost was on a large, oblong table facing the audience and with the five search committee members facing her, myself included. What was interesting was that the entire university of students, staff, and faculty were invited such that the quadrangle area was fully packed. I sensed that many members of the public at large were present, as well, given the high-stakes nature of the meeting. I appreciated but was somewhat inhibited in knowing that members of the public were in attendance, including, possibly, members of the Texas legislature.

I don't remember any microphones. Rather, our voices were magically heard by all, presumably because of the Elysian's architectural design. What I liked was the "demos" vibe of the event, which is, of course, the root of the word "democracy," meaning "the people." What all appreciated and took for granted was that this was a transparent conversation surrounding this important hire where the expertise of the search committee was recognized as a matter of fact.

On the topic of the qualities of the provost, I remember saying that they should ideally be likable to the faculty, considering their relationship to the faculty. I by no means meant that the provost herself wasn't likable, but rather, the next provost should be similarly appealing. She took my suggestion well and agreed, nodding her head. Another on the search committee asked the provost what is the question she gets asked the most.

The provost said, "The question I get asked most is about diversity." My mind went immediately to the struggles we have been having in Texas with Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion (DEI). I thought to myself, "I'm not surprised considering all the chaos that the Texas legislature's ending of DEI programs and initiatives had wrought. In fact, it was the answer I was expecting.

What happened next, though, surprised me. The provost stopped speaking and stood up and walked over to her left side of the quadrangle, where large canvases dropped down from between its marble columns, four total. She painted with a large paintbrush, one canvas after another at breakneck speed, with beautiful, bright-colored imagery. The audience, myself included, was stunned and spellbound.

Then a white female professor, presumably a faculty member from the Fine Arts Department, similarly stood up and belted out a most beautiful rendition of the classic, Mexican song, "Los Laureles," sung by numerous artists, reminiscent of the memorable one by Linda Ronstadt in her best-selling, Grammy Award-winning album, Canciones de Mi Padre (My father's songs). You can listen to it in its entirety here and read the lyrics in Spanish here.

The provost never stopped painting, reminding me of the movie, "Fantasia," which is imaginatively vivid and expressive through animation, transporting the viewer to other worlds. Moreover, she inspired this professor to extemporaneously stand up to sing this well-known traditional Mexican song, which was clearly one of her well-rehearsed favorites, that extended the political statement the provost was making through art. What surprised us Mexicans and Mexican Americans in the audience was that both were white powerful women doing this and in the context of a search committee meeting! This was unheard of!

The person next to me said, "Can you believe this? There is such a deep hunger for diversity that even white people are craving it!" "And it's Mexican!" I said.

The final touch was a most piercing, loud Mexican grito, by a Latino male that punctuated a most extraordinary event, waking me up and literally thrusting me into consciousness (see Learn How to Grito like a Mariachi on Youtube).

There are many layers here that I am still figuring out. An immediate takeaway is that there truly exists such a deep hunger for diversity that we're seeing white people actively seeking out multicultural experiences, engaging with diverse communities, and advocating for inclusivity in various spaces. It really is hard to argue against the idea that our diversity is our strength, forming us into a richer, more vibrant society and nation that benefits everyone.

Conversely, without it, we are impoverished. Even our institutions lose their gleam, at best. At worst, they crumble and fall into disrepair.
 
A final thought is that we, as Mexicans or Mexican Americans—or members of any nationality, race, or ethnicity—also cannot and should not underestimate white people. Many of them are already Mexican (or other race, ethnicity, or nationality) in their hearts. And the number is growing. Or perhaps they have a Mexican mother, father, grandmother, or grandfather, including departed ones, who are not just telling them to love those parts of themselves that defy the myth of racial purity but also that art really can save the world. 

If it worked for Linda Ronstadt, it could work for them, too. 🩷

Friday, January 05, 2024

A Personal Reflection on The 1619 Project and a Word of Thanks to my Husband, Dr. Emilio Zamora

Friends:

I’m reading The 1619 Project: A New American Origin Story written by Pulitzer Prize-winning journalist, Nicole Hannah-Jones, that I highly recommend. My husband, Dr. Emilio Zamora, a recent past president of the Texas State Historical Association, and I had an amazing conversation this morning about this book and the history of slavery and the Civil War.

Emilio says that it’s a conventional history on the topic, despite what literally outlawing it, as Texas has done, to suggest otherwise. The difference is the context in which it appears. “There are critical texts going back for decades,” he said, rattling off a few. My main statement in response is that it’s also so very well written. “It’s honest,” he responded.
 
He went on to discuss the different interpretations of the reasons for the Civil War and the ideological camps into which scholars themselves fall in his characteristic manner of great detail. You're such a treasure, Emilio.

This morning's conversation reminded me of just how terrible and backward it is for states like Texas and Florida to not just ban, but also distort and misrepresent texts like these. I asked him if he thought that the negative press might have a boomerang effect and draw readers to it.

He hesitated, saying that he wasn't sure. "Most people don't read history," he said. This was not what I wanted to hear. I like to think that the bad press is drawing a new generation of readers to texts like these. After all, it's the "forbidden fruit." I trust that it will sometime soon join the literary canon as a must-read not unlike Howard Zinn's, A People's History of the United States.

This morning reminded me of why I married a historian. What an honor and privilege to read this and so many other texts that we can share and chew on at any time he or I wish.

As mentioned in my earlier post, Emilio has a forthcoming anthology that he is co-editing with the inimitable historian, Dr. Andrés Tijerina. It's titled, The History of Mexican Americans in Texas and will be available this year to 10th graders in Texas public schools. My heart is full.

It’s awesome and profound to think that we are both the fulfillment of each other’s dreams for this life we’ve lived.

Thank you, Emilio. Please forgive me for the many times that I have taken you for granted. I can't imagine my life without you. You, our children, son-in-law, grandchildren, and extended family make my life whole. It's all so humbling. Gracias!

Love you! Por vida! 💗

-Angela Valenzuela
References

Hannah-Jones, N. (2021). The 1619 Project: A New American Origin Story. Random House.

Tijerina, A. & Zamora, E. (in press). The History of Mexican Americans in Texas: 
A History of Tradition and Struggle. Kendall Hunt Publishers.

Zinn, H. (1980). A People's History of the United States. Harper & Row.


Photo credit: Juanita Tijerina Dec. 19, 2023, San Antonio, Texas


Wednesday, November 10, 2021

A Personal Message on Why I Blog and a Word of Thanks by Angela Valenzuela, Ph.D.

A Personal Message on Why I Blog and a Word of Thanks

by

 Angela Valenzuela, Ph.D.

November 10, 2021


This blog passed the two-million-page-views mark sometime over the weekend. I take this to mean that I am providing an important service that clearly, the public wants and appreciates. I want to thank all of you who follow this blog for your interest in what is today a respectable digital archive on issues that I have followed over the years, including high-stakes testing, civil and human rights, voting rights, Ethnic Studies, Indigeneity, bilingual education, and an array of social, cultural, and environmental issues that get my attention.

Prior to running this blog, I had a listserv for seven years. A former colleague, Dr. Susan Empson, who teaches now at the University of Missouri said to me one day in 2003, "You should consider having a blog." Back then, the Cloud didn't exist and was thusly always in need of space to house items that I had been gathering over the many years of operating the listserv. A blog was the solution. Here is a brief history on blogging that situates this blog in the early period of "Mommy blogs" and live blogging just before YouTube got launched. Can we even imagine a world without either Youtube or the Internet?

Pardon the cliché, but I sensed this as a "brave new world." 

What did it mean for someone like myself, a university professor, to blog? There's something curiously safe when producing knowledge for narrow audiences. It's yet another to "put yourself out there" for the world to see.  Moreover, I wasn't sure at the time how it would impact my career, especially since I didn't progress to full professor until a year later in 2005. 

Might I jeopardize my chances for promotion to full professor status? I asked myself. After blogging for a few years, I remember a former university provost friending me on Twitter  (where all my blogs get posted) four months prior to his taking the position. He couldn't have known me from Adam. Was I on some list? I suppose so. I ran into him months later and he said, "I follow you," in a friendly voice. "I follow you, too," I said, exchanging smiles.

There were clearly some bumps in the road but all in all, my blogging experience has been very positive. I do encourage those around me like students and fellow faculty to set up their own blogs and cultivate their own public voices. After all, as we know now, independent authoritative voices contribute to the maintenance and deepening of our democracy. We all not only want good information and knowledge, we also want it to come from a studied standpoint and a trustworthy place. Moreover, authenticity in the blogosphere, I have learned, is gold.

So much pulls at everyone's attention such that I have come to see how blogs can occupy a special place in social media by anchoring progressive policy agendas like the important fight today against extremism, the ongoing struggles for Bilingual Education, culturally sustaining curriculum, Ethnic Studies, school finance, and the never-ending fight against not assessment, but high-stakes testing, and other public policy battles at local, state, and national levels.

Still, the question of why I blog, especially in light of my earlier insecurities about my own voice in the public sphere merits further elaboration. 

I remember that what was happening in the early 2000s when the idea of blogging first entered my imagination, the immigrant rights DREAMer Movement of which I was, and have been a part, was in full swing. I witnessed all these young, fearless Millennials using the full measure of their tech-savviness and political astuteness in messaging to push their federal DREAM Act agenda out into the public sphere. 

By any measure, the DREAMers were hugely successful in what we in policy term, "agenda setting." They were brilliant and motivated. They achieved national and international notoriety, resulting in the Federal DREAM Act. And that's a big deal.

They motivated and inspired me to similarly be courageous. After all, I am privileged to be a researcher and scholar at the University of Texas and relative to these students and the many risks they took and continue to take, I had little to lose and much to gain. 

I owe it to people like Montserrat and her sister, Julieta Garibay, and all the DREAMers I've come across over the years who are a testament to what can get accomplished if we get in front of an issue as opposed to cowering behind it. So, I ventured forth and here you have it, a 17-year-old blog. 

I owe so much, as well, to my undergraduate, masters and doctoral students over the years, whose energies and passions have nourished within me an ongoing sense of renewal. My family, too, had their own questions about all this in the early years and thankfully, have supported my incessant blogging throughout.

In Greek, my name means "messenger." It certainly aligns. It's that pull, and occasional yank. It's that push, if not an impulse, that whisper in the ear, that impels thought and action. What also aligns is that today, 16 years ago, my beautiful mother and best friend passed away. I love you, Mom! ❤️

For those of you who would like to know a little bit more about me, I share below a bio, versions of which I make available when asked. Again, thank you for your interest in this blog and in our collective struggle for justice and a better world that simultaneously harnesses Earth's power to heal herself and affirms the notion of a shared humanity.


-Angela Valenzuela, Ph.D.


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Angela Valenzuela, Ph.D.

Biography

Angela Valenzuela, Ph.D., is a Professor in the Department of Educational Leadership and Policy with a courtesy appointment in the Department of Curriculum & Instruction at the University of Texas at Austin. She is the director of the Texas Center for Education Policy. Previously, she taught in the Department of Sociology at Rice University in Houston (1990-98), and she was a Visiting Scholar at the Center for Mexican American Studies at the University of Houston (1998-99). She completed her Ph.D. at Stanford University and is the author of the award-winning book, Subtractive Schooling: U.S.-Mexican Youth and the Politics of Caring (1999), as well as Leaving Children Behind: How “Texas-style” Accountability Fails Latino Youth (2005), and Growing Critically Conscious Teachers: A Social Justice Curriculum for Educators of Latino/a Youth (2016).

Dr. Valenzuela served as an expert witness on curriculum in Arce, et. al. v. Douglas,793 F. 3rd 968 (2015) where Mexican American Studies plaintiffs prevailed and the dismantling of Tucson Unified School District’s MAS program was found unconstitutional both in enactment and enforcement by Judge A. Wallace Tashima. 269 F. Supp. 948 (D. Ariz. 2017), citing violations to the Equal Protection Clause of the Fourteenth Amendment and the First Amendment.

Locally, Dr. Valenzuela co-founded Academia Cuauhtli, a language and cultural revitalization project that is currently in its eighth year of operation. This work has involved the development of a professional, Spanish and English, culturally sustaining curriculum and pedagogy for fourth- and fifth-graders attending eight East Austin schools. We host professional development workshops for Austin Independent School District dual language/bilingual education teachers. Over the years, we have enjoyed the service of hundreds of volunteers, including graduate students and faculty from the University of Texas at Austin, Texas State University and Houston-Tillotson University. A special feature is a danza Mexica (Aztec dance or ceremonial) curriculum that inspires our youth even as it invokes a deep, joyous sense of the sacred in education.

Currently, Dr. Valenzuela co-chairs with Dr. Theresa Montaño the LULAC National Higher Education Committee and is the Executive Director of the National Latina/o Education Research and Policy Project (NLERAPP), a consortium of ten member institutions that enhances teaching for high school youth in Texas, California, Wisconsin, Chicago, New York, Colorado, New Mexico, and Arizona. She also founded and operates an education blog titled, Educational Equity, Politics, and Policy in Texas.

A previous Fulbright Scholar, Valenzuela spent her 2007-08 academic year in Mexico where she taught in the College of Law at the University of Guanajuato in Guanajuato, Guanajuato and conducted research in the areas of immigration, human rights, and binational relations. Most recently, she was honored to have been selected to be a scholar in residence in the School of Education at the University of Colorado at Boulder. In 2019, she received the Henry H. Trueba Award for Research Leading to the Transformation of the Social Contexts of Education from the American Educational Research Association.

In 2020, she was winner of the 2021 Elizabeth G. Cohen Distinguished Career in Applied Sociology of Education Award. This award is presented every other year by the Sociology of Education special interest group of the American Educational Research Association "in recognition of a research career that is an exemplar of how to successfully bring rigorous research to bear on solutions to problems in practical settings.


Dr. Valenzuela is particularly proud of recent recognition in the community, including earning the La Campana Award by the Mexican American School Board Association, as well as the Lifetime Achievement Award by the Emma S. Barrientos Mexican American Cultural Center in Austin, Texas. This week of November 10-12, Dr. Valenzuela also celebrates getting inducted into the 2021 cohort of the National Academy of Education. 


Valenzuela's research and teaching interests are in the sociology of education, minority youth in schools, urban education reform, culturally relevant curriculum, Ethnic Studies, and Indigenous education, as well as educational policy studies and analysis. 


You can find many of my published articles in Google Scholar, Academia.edu, and ResearchGate.net


Twitter: @vlnzl

Wednesday, July 21, 2021

"A Debt of Gratitude and Personal Reflection on Healing in a Pandemic," by Angela Valenzuela, Ph.D.

Today was sentimental for me. I finished my last physical therapy session with my wonderful therapist and now dear friend and colleague, Dr. John Longoria at Texas Orthopedics Sports & Rehabilitation Associates located at Barton Creek where he works as lead therapist.


I had a bad fall in a hotel over the Christmas holidays and broke my arm in two—just below the shoulder in the "neck" of the arm. It was so terribly painful and the recovery, long. 


I kept these news mostly to myself because it felt too personal to share at the time. Plus, since I'm right-handed, I wasn't able to write or type very much at all anyway for a good long while.


I took most of the semester off from my teaching responsibilities at the University of Texas where I work so that I could focus on my healing. I'm very grateful for the support that I got from my Chair, Dr. Victor Saenz and Dean Charles Martinez who granted me my requested leave.


In the context of my many months in physical therapy, the healing process has entailed a lot of working through the pain and stiffness via frequent massages, regular exercise, good nutrition, daily prayers, and disciplined meditation. This experience in the middle of a pandemic that included an epic winter storm, deepened my sense of vulnerability—as well as those of others—forcing me to slow down and assess the significance of all of this in this particular moment in history


In general, my condition forced me into greater stillness, reflection, and self-awareness, deepening my partnership with the Divine and in so doing, raising my vibration, and engendering a sense of newness and aliveness that I am learning is taking hold across the planet as we collectively navigate meaning and self love, paradoxically, in the throes of seemingly unending wars, unspeakable violence, endemic fear, environmental devastation, and tumultuous political crises.


The deeper message is one of a common humanity that we as humans, regardless of our differences, can regenerate through the power of love if loving ourselves first is our point of departure. What is so liberating is that viewed in this way, we do not discover our purpose in life, but rather we create it as sparks of Divinity herself. 


And this is potentially achievable for every human being if we will only take that journey to the heart. It's beyond interesting to think that we're socialized into always thinking that our purpose and happiness is always "out there," outside of us, when we don't even know ourselves. After all, we are all always much more than we say we are. And we are all always much more than who we are told we are.


When I think of the battles we are having at the Texas State Legislature right now surrounding so-called "Critical Race Theory"—a catch-all term for anything controversial that threatens white legislators' sensibilities —I am struck by the thought that these legislators do not know themselves. Or to the extent that they do, it is in terms of their belief in their "apartness" from the rest of humanity. (Their  "above-ness," too, right?") 


Do give this some thought: If we are all children of God, Creator, Allah, Wakan Tanka, Jehova, Source, or simply "the Divine," then our collective task and responsibility is to discover that we are "a part of," instead of "apart from," as those in power would have us believe.


Ignorance notwithstanding, I think that what lurks beneath the fear of Critical Race Theory is an unwillingness to relinquish "apartness" as a way of knowing and being in the world. Yet the Golden Rule insists on treating others as we ourselves would like to be treated. Similarly, the Mayans have gifted us with "In Lak' Ech," which means that your are my other me—to include the planet and all living things in a cosmovision that promotes planetary peace, healing, and reconciliation. 


I hope that you find healing and comfort in these words. They certainly feel new and redemptive to me.


Dr. John Longoria, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything! You are a virtuoso! I appreciate your upbeat  attitude, compassion and caring, social justice ethic, and unmatched knowledge of the human body. Your targeted massages, dry needle work, and prescribed exercises followed sensible progressions that culminated in my strength and healing. You were also kind enough not to tell me until past the midway point that a break in the "neck" of the arm is among the worst kind of arm-breaks possible. Your magnanimous assistant, Sully, was a constant source of light and encouragement, making every session something that I looked forward to.


Thanks to my hubby, Emilio Zamora, for taking care of me while taking up the slack, particularly in those initial weeks weeks of trauma and adjustment that multiplied his family and home responsibilities. Being close to our community surrounding the ongoing work of Academia Cuauhtli, our Saturday school, was so incredibly heartening, as well. It was humbling to know that I could step back for awhile without worries, knowing that our community's cultural and linguistic revitalizing work would continue. Now that's sustainability!


Thanks to our daughters, Clara and Luz, and Anthony, Luz' boyfriend, who we have come to love and appreciate as part of our family. Having you, as well as our grand children, Feliciano and Mia Luna, ever present throughout these many months of the pandemic made it all not just bearable, but magical and fun. 💗


In Lak' Ech

Tu eres mi otro yo

You are my other me

Sunday, November 11, 2018

If the Dead Could Speak...My Reflections on the June 28, 1914 Assassination of the Duke of Serbia

My second and final re-posting that reflects on World World I.  Our K-12 Ethnic Studies and Mexican American Studies classrooms could make good use of this important contribution made by Dr. Emilio Zamora.  

It could also be the most amazing field trip to be able to take our youth to France to learn in a personal way like Emilio and I did, about WWI and our communities' wartime sacrifice for democracy and freedom.

Enjoy! 

-Angela Valenzuela


This day 98 years ago on June 28, 1914, the Duke of Serbia Franz Ferdinand of Austria and his wife Sophie, the Duchess of Hohenberg, were killed in Sarajevo, the capital of the Austro-Hungarian province of Bosnia and Herzegovina, leading to a chain of events that served as a catalyst for the first World War. Staggering numbers of Americans, including many from Texas, lost their lives. 

Today, my husband, UT History Professor Emilio Zamora and I visited the graves at the largest American cemetery in Europe located at Romagne-sous-Montfaucon and honored the memory of individuals like Simón Gonzales from Martindale, Texas, and so many others that gave their lives in the Allied Cause against Germany—and as captured in the singular, very graphic and moving WWI Diary written by former school teacher from Realitos in South Texas, José de la Luz Sáenz. 
The bluish-tinted stamp shows Sophia, duchess of Hohenberg on the left, and Franz Ferdinand on the right. The stamp is titled "Militärpost" ("Military Mail") at the top, and the date of the couple's deaths at the bottom.
Austria-Hungary commemorative postage stamp


Luz Sáenz joined the war effort with the specific intention of paying the ultimate sacrifice in order to be able to return to the U.S. and make the specific claim for civil rights for Mexican Americans back home in the U.S. 

Amazingly, Luz Sáenz not only survived the great war but also produced this fascinating and exceptionally written war diary that is a very detailed and unblinking, day-to-day account of what he experienced as an American soldier.  (Note: Emilio translated it into English and interpreted it and Luz Saenz' life and contributions in an opening chapter.)

Luz Sáenz ended up returning to the U.S. and becoming one of the founders of the League of United Latin American Citizens (LULAC), that today is the oldest and largest Latino civil rights organizations in the country.  I myself am a member of LULAC and have been so for many years.  Looking backwards through time, we might easily say that his strategy for inclusion worked, making him in so many ways a precursor to the Mexican American Civil Rights Movement.

Located northeast of Paris and otherwise termed "The Western Front," the The Meuse-Argonne Cemetery located roughly where the Meuse-Argonne Offensive took place is where we visited today. I came to appreciate in a tangible way just how important this specific offensive was to the ultimate defeat of Germany despite it's incalculable toll within and across time—indeed generationally, in particular, for the French, British, and so many others that experienced the brunt of this war. 

It was moving to see the headstones of the 14,246 fallen that were never repatriated to the United States.  It was similarly moving to traverse the towns, hills, and rivers where so many fought bravely, shed blood, and lost their lives. 

We located the grave of individuals like Simón Gonzales of Martindale, Texas, who was a good friend of Jose de la Luz Saenz and according to his recounting of his personal story, was well liked by all but sadly fought courageously but lost his life. 

For some unknown reason, Simón Gonzales' body was never repatriated to the U.S.  Of course the bodies of so many others remained as you can see from this image that doesn't even come close to capturing the thousands that lay silent and to some extent "unmissed and unremembered" there today.  And this despite the literally thousands of American bodies returned home upon request by their families. What we do know is that this issue of repatriated bodies was a hotly debated issue since it also made sense for some for them to simply remain on the sacred ground for which they fought so hard. More research on all of this needs to nevertheless be done in order to know why specific individuals like Simón Gonzales lay silently on the bucolic slopes of this cemetery, "Americain." 

Perhaps most striking and interesting for me was to contemplate on this day, the 98-year anniversary of "the shot heard round the world"—the killing of the Duke of Serbia—that even in France where the stakes were exceedingly high has subsided into the deep recesses of memory to the point of little, if any, noticeable recollection of this momentous event on such a day like today.

If the dead could speak, my guess is that they would ask us for their sacrifice to have meant something to us and for us.  Of course, we all know at some level what it meant, however, I think that they would have liked for it to have been a more personal memory or thought process regarding the war that Luz Saenz and others hoped would end all wars.... 

I can certainly say that reading Emilio's book and coming here—and doing both simultaneously today—resurrected a painful, albeit collective, memory that brought healing to a wound that I myself didn't quite know I had.

Angela Valenzuela


c/s

Thursday, February 01, 2018

It's Hard to be Mexican These Days: A Personal Reflection

I just wrote a colleague, telling him that it's hard to be Mexican these days.*  I was supposed to get an important evaluation to him by this week and it's down to the wire and that's what comes to mind. “Too much drama and trauma these days," I shared.

Too many battles.  Too many fronts. Too much effort and work.  And effort and work would not be a problem if we aren't also fighting on other fronts like the U.S. Congress and the neoliberal class forever encroaching on our community space and schools with threats of school closure left and right.  All of this in addition to trying hard to be and do right in all my relations, colleagues included.

On Wednesday, January 31, what should have been another elevating, soulful annual moment when I celebrate love and life in honor of my Mom's birthday who passed away much too soon in 2005—I felt angry, disappointed, and sad.  You can check out my earlier posts today and yesterday to catch up on what I and others have been up to that is yes, disappointing and enraging.

So I was angry on my mother's birthday, though not completely...thankfully.

After an amazing weekend with our Grow Your Own Educator National Summit, hearing great talks, re-kindling old friendships, forging new ones, and folks speaking with such eloquence from the heart, rejuvinated and inspired me.  UT Doctoral Student and Vice-Principal Macario Hernandez from Oakcliff in Dallas, for one, conveyed passionately how growing our own educators saves lives.

Since our gatherings as a sponsoring national organization, the National Latino Education Research and Policy, Inc. always coincide with my mother's birthday—and now, this Summit,  love, magic, and wonder always pay a visit—at least for me.  We are so blessed to be who we are, doing the work that people in my world do as educators of the succeeding generations.

It's hard for me to remember my Mom's birthday without thinking, "What would she think about all that's happening now if she were still here with us today?"  "And what might she say?"  She was an avid reader of history, earning a B.A. in History, so I actually don't have to ask because I know exactly what she would say.

This takes me to Tuesday's disappointing Texas State Board of Education meeting, Trump's State of the (Dis)Union address, LULAC President Roger Rocha's letter of support to Donald Trump (he has since rescinded it, but the damage is done), and the arrest of a friend of a friend of mine, a mother who has left a young, traumatized child behind, adding that off of IH-35 and St. Johns here in Austin, Texas, a lot of ICE vehicles have surrounded an apartment building and they are going door to door arresting people.  What the heck...?!!!

So, what would my Mom think and say about all of this?  She would say that these are all connected and that this optic of door-to-door arrests of parents and hard-working families should matter to any person with any sense of humanity that is not a nazi.  This is nothing less than state-sanctioned, state-sponsored terror and terrorism, Trumpism at its "best."

And to not at all insult my loyal and dear followers and friends from Germany, but my Mom would say that this is a "Gestapo force" exerting great harm on our people.  She would also say that our policies and actions are the downward, moral spiral that could evolve into what Hitler did to the Jews. That's why we should never cross those lines in policy or practice.  She might also say that this is what the Texas Rangers did to us Mexicans in an earlier, dreadful chapter in Texas history when harassing and lynching Mexicans was for sport and tremendous gain for the military-industrial complex of its time. For instance, check out this recent story on a massacre, a killing of 15 innocent men and boys and a destruction of their town by the Texas Rangers in Porvenir, Texas, resulting in their reorganization as a law enforcement entity.

Fortunately, I got to spend some quality time yesterday evening with our students that volunteer for Academia Cuauhtli, a Saturday Academy that is a partnership between Nuestro Grupo, our CBO, AISD, and the City of Austin's Mexican American Cultural Center.  I am so grateful for the time and space that we have to be a healing force for one another.  This is a place to laugh, cry, and experience joy.  

I don't think that I would endure as well this current horrific moment were it not for them, our elders, and community, a dense network of positive relations, everybody working very hard, challenging white supremacy and cultural chauvinism, making it a little less hard to be Mexican today.

Okay, now I better get back on task with the deliverable that I promised my colleague. :-)

Angela Valenzuela

*For those that need some orientation, historically, being "Mexican" for Mexican Americans in the Southwest, it is not a national, but rather an ethnic minority, identity.


Sunday, December 31, 2017

Thirteen Years Ago: My fresh Take on the December 26, 2004 Tsunami Tragedy

This moment 13 years ago totally mattered to me because our children were small and we had hard questions to answer like "Why does God let terrible things like this happen?" This moment further coincided with my decision to start a blog in 2004. As you can read below, I took it upon myself to respond to New York Times columnist, David Brooks' January 1, 2005 piece titled, "A Time to Mourn."


Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7DWuRQuqDgE

It began at 8AM on December 26, 2004 with a 9.3 earthquake in Indonesian waters close to 8 a.m., setting off a deadly tsunami that inflicted devastation from the coastlines of Somalia, in east African, to Sumatra in Southeast Asia, killing approximately 230,000 people. It had the power of 23,000 Hiroshima-type atomic bombs (National Geographic Society. "The Deadliest Tsunami in History?" May 2, 2015).

I imagine that a good number of you remember this time period since most were home for the holidays, and our eyes were all glued to our televisions, watching this colossal disaster and its aftermath of historic proportions unfolding before our very eyes.
 
While most earthquakes last for only a few seconds, it is reported that the Sumatra-Andaman earthquake, as it is known to the scientific community, lasted almost ten minutes, triggering other earthquakes as far away as Alaska and causing the entire planet to move at least a few centimeters. The epicenter of the earthquake was 100 miles west of Sumatra, at the western end of the area known as the “Ring of Fire” for its intense seismic activity. That region has been home to more than 80 percent of the world’s largest earthquakes. Since 1900, when accurate measurements began to be made, only three or four earthquakes have rivaled the Sumatra-Andaman in power (see History Channel, for more information).
 
Instead of global warming being the culprit, it was Earth's tectonic plates pressing against one another to the point that the Earth "shuddered."
 
The earthquake was the result of the sliding of the portion of the Earth's crust known as the India plate under the section called the Burma plate. The process has been going on for millennia, one plate pushing against the other until something has to give. The result on December 26 was a rupture the USGS estimates was more than 600 miles (1,000 kilometers) long, displacing the seafloor above the rupture by perhaps 10 yards (about 10 meters) horizontally and several yards vertically. That doesn't sound like much, but the trillions of tons of rock that were moved along hundreds of miles caused the planet to shudder with the largest magnitude earthquake in 40 years.
 
Sadly, and tragically, a third of all killed were children, countless numbers swept into the sea.

Conflating God with nature, David Brooks raises an existential question regarding who we are as humans before "this catastrophic, genocidal nature," the latter of which often gets romanticized in literature. 

Hundreds of thousands of individuals caught in its path seemed cruel and arbitrary, contradicting the view of God and nature as "a nurse or friend."
 
Rather than falling into an existential crisis myself, I chose to focus in my response (see below) to the building of a global community which I still think is a good response even if I dodged Brooks' question, stating that we need to "address the moral and ethical dimensions of our global relationships" and come together in times of catastrophe like these. I write this even as FEMA is now an officially broken system (read Bill Weir, CNN, December 21, 2017 "Hellish summer of hurricanes smashes FEMA.")
 
My fresh take this evening is the potential survivability of a tsunami when local, indigenous knowledge is present and valued. The case in point regards native islanders from the Indonesian island of Simeulue where the oral tradition together with historical memory of a tsunami that occurred over a hundred years ago in 1907, helped them to assess it accurately and retreat to higher ground with a total of 7 inhabitants dying out of a population of 82,555 that were otherwise vulnerable (read this blog post by Musfarayani who elaborates on this experience in detail; also check out this research study that also notes the importance of education and the oral tradition of native villagers).
 
The moral of the story here is that if our ways of knowing accord value to ancestral wisdom and local knowledge—and ideally teach this in the educational system itself—nature is no longer the culprit. Instead, at the heart of the matter are "regimes of truth" aligned to systems of power that either disparage or simply disavow ancestral wisdom, local knowledge, and Earth-conscious ways of knowing.

So perhaps it's not so much whether nature is a friend or foe, but rather how our epistemologies, or ways of knowing, risk or enhance, our own species survivability.
 
Peace/paz,
 
Angela Valenzuela

Sunday, April 16, 2017

My Easter Sunday Reflection

Here is a powerful, Easter blog post by Michael Seifert from Brownsville, Texas titled, "Hallowed be Thy Name,"with ideas that are perfect for a day like today, Easter Sunday, 2017.  It has so many important insights that you really need to read it yourself.  
Quote from within:
"As this Holy Week turns toward the celebrations of the death and resurrection of Jesus the Christ, I believe it appropriate to recognize the holiness of those who have suffered the damning theft of a child by the state. In their own, specific way, they are God-like, having suffered what God knew on Good Friday—the theft of one’s own flesh, the kidnapping of the most-loved one, the loss of a reason to live.

Some of us hope for that day when there is no need for a term for parents who have lost their children. We wait for the day when such an unthinkable moment no longer occurs, when this impossible idea begging for wings to take flight, to pass over and protect so many who yet remain at risk for this tragedy in need of a name
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My heart felt crushed as I read Seifert's mention of the unfathomable thought of ever losing one's child or grandchild to violence at the same time that the author calls upon us to acknowledge that this very thing is happening at this very moment across the world at alarming, unconscionable levels.

Contemplating the level of agony, pain, and suffering that accompanies this violence is to peer into a fearful and foreboding abyss, this heart of darkness to the point that we seem incapable of either hitting, much less finding, the "re-set" button to turn this cascading flow of violence of epic proportions around.

To avoid falling into this abyss where but for God's grace, any one of us might find ourselves in a "passover situation," or crisis, as Seifert suggests, "begging for wings to take flight, to pass over and protect"—we must get close to the ground to find the truth in the stuff of our everyday, ethical relations and relationships in our families, communities, and work—and how these connect to policies, priorities, practices, and ways of knowing and being in the world.

The trick for me has also been to accept that the dark and evil forces that threaten to engulf are never more powerful than the goodness, magic, and greatness that motivates, heals, and inspires.  A rich, full life of the body, mind, and spirit, in and with community and all our relations, is ours to have, if we can only be open to it.

This requires self-examination, however, as we all have to decide that we want to be among those that promote positive, democratic, social justice values and nurture these sensibilities—not ever for the purpose of numbing ourselves to others' suffering, but rather to advocate for ways of knowing and being in the world that reject the forces of death, violence, destruction, and despair.

These are ways of knowing and being that are so radical, they begin today, in this very moment.  This is a world that we—both individually and collectively—decide on.  It is a place where peace, caring, healing, hope, humility, love of community, and a good spirit abide.  It is one that is in complete observance of other's right to similarly live lives in peace and dignity.

This ethos is conveyed by the Mayan concept of "In Lak'Ech"—which for us is the Golden Rule.  "You are my other me." "Whatever I do to you, I do to me."  "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." These are universal, redemptive values that when practiced, lead to personal liberation and transformation—both for ourselves personally and the world.

I recommend reading this post in its entirety.  Regardless of our different faiths, religions, or creeds, may we all experience and express that sense of the resurrection, that spirit of renewal and re-birth that is not reducible to a day or an event, but rather to a praxis or practice, a lived, everyday aspect of being in the world—and with policies and priorities to match.



Paz/Peace. And blessings to all. 



Angela Valenzuela
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